Getting out of the comfort zone ~ VULNERABILITY & facing the fear of BEING SEEN!
I believe in walking my talk.
Lately I have been exploring the concept of getting out of my comfort zone and why it is so important.
Last year I walked 486 miles thru- hiking on the Colorado Trail. I embarked on this massive mission because I was feeling lost, looking for clarity and direction in my life, searching for connection, and needing to “find myself”.
I completed the journey and shared it publicly to the best of my comfort zone ability.
I wrote about it and posted beautiful pictures of the scenery. I felt safe with this method of sharing.
When I write, even tho I may be sharing on a personal level, it somehow feels detached.
I think to myself “who knows, probably no one will take the time to read this anyways, so lets just go for it.”
In the back of my mind however, I had the idea to somehow share the story visually.
My whole life I have somehow felt invisible and kind of liked it this way. I like telling other people’s stories. I much prefer to be behind a camera than in front of one, and my job as a psychic medium requires that I am totally tuned in and connected to others besides myself.
Let’s just say I am not a selfie taker/poster.
However, on my Colorado Trail journey I took videos of myself. I wanted to document my inner journey. How I transformed, what I learned, and how I changed, but I havn’t had the guts to post or share these videos.
If I am truly honest about why I havn’t shared the videos, it is because I have been afraid of being seen.
Fear is what has been stopping me.
I have been afraid of judgement.
Fear of not being perfect, not LOOKING perfect. Afraid of putting the raw & real me out there.
Recently, I got inspired by a friend who is also on a journey, filming himself, and putting it out there.
I thought to myself, “how amazing. This takes courage.”
I had been on a similar soul searching journey, filmed myself, and I didn’t have the courage to post it.
It got me thinking about why? Why didnt I have the courage to post it at the time? Why have I sat on this for a year?
These questions led me to re-watch Brene Browns TED talk on the power of vulnerability.
She says that connection is why we are here, and that shame is the fear of disconnection.
That there is something about me that if other people know it or see it than I wont be worthy of connection.
She says that in order to have connection we have to allow ourselves to BE SEEN!
She says that the key aspects of people who have a strong sense of love and belonging BELIEVE they are WORTHY of love and belonging. The common traits they possess are:
- Courage – to tell their story with their whole heart & have the courage to be imperfect.
- Compassion – to be kind to themselves first and then they will have more compassion with others.
- Connection – which comes as a result of their authenticity! The willingness to let go of who they thought they should be in order to be who they are.
She ends by saying the keys to connection, deep whole hearted connection are:
- Letting ourselves be seen: deeply and vulnerably seen.
- Loving with our whole heart even tho there is no guarantee.
- Practicing GRATITUDE & JOY.
- Believing and embodying that I AM ENOUGH. Right here and right now.
So I have decided that I am going to allow myself to BE SEEN!
I am going to revisit my solo thru- hike, self searching journey, on the Colorado Trail and edit my videos!
It is going to be another journey in itself!
Facing my fear of being seen, getting out of my comfort zone, being vulnerable, and simply allowing myself to be who I truly am.
So here goes! …..
Feeling lost and looking for clarity, Polly decides to walk 486 miles by herself in the Colorado Wilderness. She hitchhikes to the Colorado Trail head and the journey begins!
Being seen, being vulnerable, having the courage to be who we truly are and knowing we are ENOUGH right here right now.