“There is one great truth on this planet: whoever you are, or whatever it is that you do, when you really want something, it’s because that desire originated in the soul of the universe. It’s your mission on earth….To realize one’s Personal Legend is a person’s only real obligation…and when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve it” ~ The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
When I was 7 years old I knew what my “Personal Legend” was:
To be a world class athlete.
I wanted it more than anything.
I am now working towards realizing that dream, but something has shifted. I am not obsessed.
I actually have let go and know that whatever happens it is all ok.
I have been alot easier on myself lately. I am trying to enjoy and be in the moment more. Recognizing my thinking, observing it and telling myself most of it isn’t true.
I also know that sometimes where I think I am going isn’t really where I am going.
Like the journey I am on now. I feel like really I am along for the ride. Discovering that it is about more than winning The World Championships.
If it even is really about that at all.
I am starting to think it isn’t.
I have been asking myself lately why I decided to do this in the first place.
I know deep down it must be to realize “my Personal Legend” as Paulo Coelho calls it in The Alchemist, which I am rereading now.
I also know it is to face and break through whatever it is in my mind that holds me back. There is something in there that has always wanted me to lose, and I don’t want it anymore. I think more than anything it is about uncovering that piece of me that I have had ever since I can remember that never let me do my best.
Lately it has been surfacing as procrastination.
I am realizing that by procrastinating I have something I can hold over my head and make myself feel bad because I didn’t do it. Very f..k.d up I know.
I guess the good news is at least I am seeing it now.
For example this photo of the flower is from a tree right outside my door. I have been meaning to take photos for ages, and finally I said “come on Polly just do it.” Weird that I can go ride my bike for 2 hours or paddle but to get myself to go do something simple like take a photo turns into a major mind battle…WHY?
I know it boils down to self- love. Doing things that make me feel good and allowing myself to do them.
So I know this is going somewhere ….
as Steve Jobs said in his 2005 address to Stanford graduates “sometime we can only connect the dots afterwards.”
At the time we can’t see why but it all makes sense down the track.
Today I am grateful for PATIENCE, HARMONY, and going with the flow.