Raw and Real Reel – Vlog #11

“Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, but learning to dance in the rain.”

Well..here is Vlog #11. I am pretty nervous about putting this one out there. I think because I am sharing all of what has stood out in the past year, and it is not just the funny and positive. I have been thinking alot about the year and what I have learned by embarking on this journey of self discovery. Really it all boils down to accepting myself, which isn’t always as easy as it sounds. I am getting closer. I am now at maybe 75%. I still think I could lose weight, and looking at my footage think I looked better in the beginning than I do now. But I know it shouldn’t be about how I look, but who I am. Hard to get away from the mirror tho and everyday I think if only I was a little thinner than I will feel ok about myself. So I know that is my true test. When I look at the mirror and say “you look Damn Good” I will let you know.

But I am proud of myself for putting this video out there even when I am not 100% happy with my weight or how I look. I do have to say I feel more free now putting it out there. I am facing my fears and saying who cares. This is me. I am being honest and it’s life.

Here is some of what I have learned so far:

  • Discipline – making myself do it even when that little voice chimes in and says how bout we skip that today. Hear the voice and do it anyway
  • Eventually I have begun to like the things I initially felt resistance towards
  • It’s not that hard. It’s my mind that makes it hard
  • It is ok to not be good at the beginning. If I do something everyday I am bound to get better eventually
  • Getting things done in the morning is better than putting it off til the end of the day
  • Getting up early sets me up to get those things done
  • Prioritizing
  • Getting out of my own way
  • Inner satisfaction is more rewarding than external compliments or awards
  • Letting my light shine allows others to do the same

So those are a few of the lessons I have learned this year.

I am grateful for embarking on this journey. I still have 2 1/2 months before the World Champs and alot of work to do, but I do feel changed from a year ago.

Today I am grateful for feeling the fear and doing it anyway.

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3 replies
  1. leslie c
    leslie c says:

    Polly, thank you for sharing the inseparable highs and lows on the journey… you are so brave and true for showing the raw downtimes too. I believe in you! Hope you believe too! On wrinkles and weight… well I’m there too but I try to remember that so many French women look fantastic, even if they aren’t that good looking or are elderly and prune-y, because you can see that inside they know they look fantastic and carry it off!

  2. Susan G
    Susan G says:

    I love this Polly. What you are learning and sharing is just what I need to hear. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

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