It is feeling like a massive transition time at the moment. Oliver and I came to Colorado to be in the mountains, and to practice yoga at Richard Freeman’s shala in Boulder, which is now being run by TY who is also an amazing teacher.
We spent 8 fantastic and challenging days walking 104 miles from Denver to Breckenridge.
It was the happiest, clearest, and most grounded I have felt in a long time.
Our plan was to go all the way to Durango (485 miles) but Oliver was feeling like it was time for him to get back to work so we pulled the pin in Breckenridge and he has since flown back to work in Germany for 2 months.
Which left me feeling a little lost and wondering what I will do now.
I have been finishing up the remainder of my editing work from Uganda and researching my next options heavily. They have included: taking a raw food/vegan cooking course, volunteering at a meditation centre, going to Nicaragua to scout out our retreat centre, looking for work in Boulder, researching jobs around the world….etc.
Fear about the unknown future and sadness about Oliver’s departure were haunting me. I decided to go meditate at the Shambala Meditation Centre here in Boulder.
I was asking for divine guidance over and over in my meditation.
What I heard was: “Go Back Out on The Colorado Trail!”
This thought made me happy.
Altho it doesn’t feel like what I “should” be doing, which is “networking in Boulder”
Going back on the trail is what my heart and soul want to do.
A yoga friend in Mysore, India told me “You know you are on purpose if what you are doing makes you thrive” and out there those 8 days on the trail I was THRIVING.
So today I bought a brand new 1 person tent on Craigs list, and I packed my backpack!
I am going back out there and starting in Breckenridge which is where Oliver and I ended 9 days ago.
I would love to make it all the way to Durango. 380 more miles.
But I also know that it is ok no matter what I do or how far I go.
I know going alone will add a different sort of intensity.
Relying fully on myself. Facing my fears. Having positive intentions and knowing I can do it.
I actually can’t wait to get back out there!
These past 9 days being back in civilization I have felt my spirit wither, like a bird in a cage.
I have been doing everything that I know of that works for me : yoga, meditation, setting positive intentions, gratitude lists, and still not feeling right. I know that I just need to go.
I want to THRIVE.
So I am going back out there into perfect nature. Away from computers, social pressures, and expectations.
I will be on a mission. I know everyday I have to get from where I am to where I am going. I need to carry everything I need with me, make sure I have enough food and water and figure out the most ideal camp locations.
Out there on the trail I felt ALIVE, HAPPY and truly at peace with in myself.
I am in trust that I have been guided to go back out there for a reason. There is something I am searching for. I have gotten a glimpse of what that is, and I know there is more….